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Hello peeps i'm back to blog! :D
Alright, life have been hard for me. Recently something did really happen to me and now i'm on mc. I cannot go school plus cannot go out. 3weeks times to my Nlevel paper, i don't know how am i going to catch up my studies. I miss alotalotalot of lesson in school. I can't write properly now and i feel like a handicap right now. I need someone to help me whenever i do something. Even u got to change my clothes, my sister has to help me with it. I am down due to sickness. Ever since i was 14, whenever i am feeling moody/upset i will never fail to open up my dairy book and started writing on my dairy holding a pen. What really gone wrong? You guys will never understand what i am really going through because you guys are not me,if possible you guys should put yourself in my shoe and your will understand how life have been fucking tough for me. I am stress with family, money, studies and even friends sometime. I always hope that my friends will always be there for me when i need them the most but i'm aware that friends will not always be there except family. I got one bestie who knows every single thing about me but unfortunaly she is not here to learn me her listening ear anymore. So who should i share my stories with? I can't get along with my family so that is impossible but for my aunt i can. I feel better sharing my stories with my friends rather then my family. I always wanted to share my stories with 'you cause you're close to me , but i know you got your own stress too and i always wanted to speak up my mind to you, talk to you so i'll feel better. Despite, making me feel this way but you're always so busy with your things. You don't even have some times for me. I know i am weird but this is just the way i am. Look can be deciving. Anyway, i got to thanks my family and ShawnaTan and kafi for coming down all the way to visit me at hospital. I hope i can control my emotional and stop thinking about it..
Okay, this few weeks my mood get screw up easily. Hot temper, moody, don't feel like talking to anymore, don't feel like going school too. Idk what happen to me seriously. Although, it's so fuck up but i still go school as normal, when i go school i pretend to be happy because i'm force to do that. Effect, i don't feel like eating neither talking to anyone. I lock myself at home too, i hate to stay at home but this few day it's oppsite way. I cancel all my plan with my friends too. What i'm doing was keep on thinking. So turn off. However, i know exam is round the corner i cannot be in this way anymore i need to pick myself up. I got to thanks my friends who has been consoling me specially boy. I'll definitely pick myself up!!!!!!!!!!
I feeling so stress. My studies, grandpa , grandma and my health. I hate my class really! I can't even concentrate properly in class. Fuck it really!. It's too terrible. Now i understand why teacher hate to teach this class so much. I regretted for i have done pass two years but there's no turning back right now because i myself choose this path. But still i'm proud of myslef from naughty become so much good now isn't it? That is what i hear from my teacher, principal and my friends. Grandma is still at hospital, today grandpa just discharge from hospital. I realise how much pain he have to go through now. He was suppose to go for a operation, not normal operation it's a big operation for his age. No one can garantee whether he will come out save anot, even the doctor say 10percent may become death. The doctor told him, he can live for 5years more or less than 5years if anything happen. He answer back , 5years is enough for him. I understand why grandpa don't want to go for operation. As a family, everybody respect his decision. We want to see him happy rather than being sad. Yes, everyone don't no what next going to happen. Still i really pray that he can live more than 5years. Grandma need to go for nursing home for the time being as they will take care of her until her leg recover. So much stress i got to go through. No one understand what i'm going through i swear but still i know i need to be strong....
Back home safetly! Alright, i hate to be sick!.. I really hate being sick to the core. I look healthy but my health don't look healthy at all. Really i swear!! Can my sickness just go aways. Please i beg you!!!!!!!!!!
Hey readers!(: Sorry for the time being, can't upload any pic as something goes wrong in my com. Anyways, i went school as normal. Went parent meeting yesterday, teacher only say i change from bad to good. (: For my result, abit dissapointed eh. Fail my chinese alot i manage to pass all e other subject. I want to score better for my next test. Going changi hospital later to visit grandma. I miss her sooooo muchhhhhhhhh.... No idea went she discharge eh. My sister told me she need to go for operation.. ): Okay i stop here then.
I don't know why do i have such kind of friend. I didn't thought you're this kind of person. It is just a few dollars of money and you can be so......... All the while , i don't fight beacause of that. Anyway, just one word to describle about you. Dissapointed! That is all i can say!