Hello peeps i'm back to blog! :D

Alright, life have been hard for me. Recently something did really happen to me and now i'm on mc. I cannot go school plus cannot go out. 3weeks times to my Nlevel paper, i don't know how am i going to catch up my studies. I miss alotalotalot of lesson in school. I can't write properly now and i feel like a handicap right now. I need someone to help me whenever i do something. Even u got to change my clothes, my sister has to help me with it. I am down due to sickness. Ever since i was 14, whenever i am feeling moody/upset i will never fail to open up my dairy book and started writing on my dairy holding a pen. What really gone wrong? You guys will never understand what i am really going through because you guys are not me,if possible you guys should put yourself in my shoe and your will understand how life have been fucking tough for me. I am stress with family, money, studies and even friends sometime. I always hope that my friends will always be there for me when i need them the most but i'm aware that friends will not always be there except family. I got one bestie who knows every single thing about me but unfortunaly she is not here to learn me her listening ear anymore. So who should i share my stories with? I can't get along with my family so that is impossible but for my aunt i can. I feel better sharing my stories with my friends rather then my family. I always wanted to share my stories with 'you cause you're close to me , but i know you got your own stress too and i always wanted to speak up my mind to you, talk to you so i'll feel better. Despite, making me feel this way but you're always so busy with your things. You don't even have some times for me. I know i am weird but this is just the way i am. Look can be deciving. Anyway, i got to thanks my family and ShawnaTan and kafi for coming down all the way to visit me at hospital. I hope i can control my emotional and stop thinking about it..